Sunday afternoon my daughter (5 years old for context) decided to color a butterfly… Now they are her favorite to draw right now as her imagination and coloring box have no limits and can curiously color in so many variations for the butterfly, but on this particular day she opted to draw and “angry” butterfly.
My husband asked Zoe, “why an angry butterfly?” and Zoe declared, “because it is funny!”
I heard this and immediately thought, actually I wonder how many pissed off butterflies are out there?
We have this assumption that the butterfly in all its beauty and glory must be all a flutter with its new ability to fly. If you consider the facts not long before this great flight it was just a bug crawling on the grass.
Now it is a butterfly and has emerged from the goo as a beautiful creature that so many claim as their spirit animal, and as a lucky little charm…. the butterfly.
Yet…. I wondered, how many angry butterflies might there be.
The transformational butterfly story has been hanging out in my mind and in my teaching rhetoric for this last year as it seems everywhere I turn I have a friend who is in a similar transition emerging from the chrysalis as a metaphorical butterfly.
They have been in the dark cocoon transformation phase aka mushy goo for months sometimes years before officially coming out as a fully formed object of affection, the butterfly.
I relate as I too recently went through a massive shift or a graduation as I like to call it, and while I personally am not pissed about it I am aware of this NEW energy that I am living in.
A few weeks ago I did private psychic readings at my yoga studio for their holiday fair and while I was there a fellow intuitive drew cards and read for me. I pulled a card with the word resistance on it.
Initially I felt like I had pulled the wrong card, and then I intuitively read it for myself and realized the resistance if there is any is in this new phase, often when we transform we aren’t fully prepared for the new view and we try to move back into the safe softness of the known world, sometimes the goo, maybe the grass.
For me personally the resistance is not wanting to fall into old easy patterns, but with that thought came the word, Surrender. Allow the new Energy to teach me how to be here in this new space.
And that is where the angry butterfly effect comes in.
Change on any level can be challenging, simply put it is new. And we do not know HOW to do the new.
Imagine you crawl into a cocoon one day thinking you are going in for a nap, instead your life vanishes before your eyes, everything changes and at the end of the tunnel when you emerge you are no longer a caterpillar who once lounged on leaves and in grass, instead you now have to fly!
But…. You didn’t realize you were afraid of heights and now you have to overcome this new fear, and it feels like you are always FREE Falling until the wind catches you and you learn to flap…..
This can make for an anxious and pissed off butterfly.
I mean you do not arrive to a crossfit gym one day with the expectation that you are going to out lift and run everyone there, especially if you have been goo for the last year, you are going to have to stretch and grow the muscles needed to participate with the elite group of athletes who love to do this.
If you are feeling the effects of the butterfly, or on the verge of the emerge, please take time to breathe. Remember this is all new and you will need to stretch and feel your way into this new reality.
It will not be long before you are sucking down the nectar like a champ and dancing in the wind with your glorious wings and spectacular color, until then you are free to feel angry, confused, and anxious, but do please surrender and allow the new energy to teach you how to live in this new paradigm!
If you need a little guidance, energy work or help as you emerge do not hesitate to set up an appointment!